Patient People

Floating hearts in my cave at school

I have the most amazing friends. As you may have gathered from previous posts, I've experienced a lot of change lately, for the better (waaaaay better). My friends have been there every step of the way, even when I've been a complete bitch or called to monopolize the conversation by talking about myself the whole time. Instead of getting frustrated (as I'm wont to do) because I'm being selfish, they've listened patiently and kindly, offering suggestions to how I may deal with each little problem. It's been amazing.

I've never experienced love like this from non-family (maybe I have and I just wasn't receptive). Actually, I don't often receive love like this from family, either. They're amazing. 

"Where did this come from?" you may be thinking. What a random-ass thing to write a blog post about. Well, I had a mini crisis last night and was crying my little eyes out about some family stuff and the three ladies I called were there to tell me how much they love me, it'll get better, hang in there, they're so glad I called (I'm getting a little misty just thinking about it). It's amazing having lady friends who are like family and who love love love me. And I love love love them. It's nice to not be just a giver or just a taker in these relationships. Sigh...love fest of friendship going on over here.

I've become quite the optimist lately. All my life, my mother has told me that I always look for the negative and I never see the best in any situation. And, that's true; but it's not because I didn't want to see the best, I just couldn't (not to mention when my mom is telling me I'm something about myself it's hard for me to see beyond her)(I wonder if I was a pessimist first or if her telling me I'm not positive made me into a pessimist...worm hole). The past few months, however, I've been the one looking at the bright side and telling people that that rude waiter probably just had a bad day and it's not about us. I've had a smile on my face and a song in my heart (hahahaha, I can't believe I just typed that).

So, last night, I knew things today would be fine and they are. I just needed a little help from my friends.