Ah Ha! vol. 6 Change

Picture from On the Write Track

Today was hard. I have a friend going through a crisis. I want to be there for her, but she won't let me. I'm sad for her, but at the same time, it's allowed me to reflect.

I've changed soooooooo much in the past year. I'm like a different person. Me a year ago was exactly where this friend is, and like her, unable to see the light. Watching my friend be oblivious to how amazing and beautiful and talented and smart and wonderful she is gives me perspective on the times I beat myself up.

In the past year, I've chosen the harder road (for me). I don't want to be sad, I don't want to be alone and I especially don't want to be sad and alone. Ew. And slowly, I'm not as much of an unpleasant bitch to be around. Now, occasionally, people call me for advice. I get invited to things. I have friends. I am a friend.

While today was especially hard, I did all the right things, and even if I hadn't, it was the best I can do. Another lovely lady friend called me to tell me I'm a great friend and how much she appreciates me.  This is really the apex of how much I've changed. I feel so grateful and amazing :)