Yesterday, I fell into a rage spiral. It started when I went to the DMV because they put my maiden middle name on my new Colorado driver's license and the lady there told me they will only put your birth certificate name on your license. Obviously this doesn't make sense, but I was so angry about women having to jump through flaming hoops for years to change our names that I stormed out.
Then, my puppy was being a monster. All day. I seriously lost my cool and screamed at her a bit. When I say scream, I mean scream. She made me cry she was being so bad. We went to the pet store to get her a new toy for being boarded this weekend and even the lady in the store noticed how upset I was. She tried to be helpful by saying, "Puppies are hard."
And it just continued the rest of the day like that. I could not get it together. I went to bed early and took time to reflect on my behavior. I acted like an ass. I was feeling really emotional all day. Moving makes it harder because I don't have close enough friends in Denver to call and tell them I'm coming over to cry about my dog and have her tell me I'm being a jerk and need to calm down. I apologized to Neon profusely and made a commitment to treat her with the respect and dignity she deserves (even when she's being a nightmare). I'm feeling much much calmer today and she is reciprocating. Having the ability to reflect on my day and the inner peace to commit to having a better day tomorrow is something I'm extremely grateful for. I'm thankful I got to start today anew and get it off to a peaceful and patient start.